Today is not the beginning, but it as a beginning…
I’ve been going down lately. Circling the drain. I’m sick and tired of being sick and tired and don’t know what to do. I’m Arrested Development (a show I’ve never really seen) and Rusted Wheel (a song I love).
So, what do we do with this? Bitch about it on the internet? Of course, I’m from the 2.0 generation and I don’t have a face book account so I bet it’s real pent up in me to show off for all my friendly nobodies. [EDIT: The phrase generation 2.0 is awesome, copyright fools.] Case in point, as of the time of this writing no one knows it exists and I doubt anyone will for a bit. My friend ___ will at some point, I think he’s the only person who has the ability to not judge me for it and the class to not bring it up for a while.
Back on topic, after bitching I believe we must move on to action. The typing is the action, I think I’ll move to hand written at some point since I need practice at it. That’s wrong, the publishing is the action. I’ve probably written this ten times before but never had the guts to let it out into the world, lest the monster of anxiety actually lose a round.
The next actions then will be positive. I’ve got cleaning, selling, cleaning, building, practice, scouting, research and more cleaning to do in order for my life to progress as I hope. That’s the real miracle, hope. Its the only thing that keeps me going, usually from unlikely sources, more on those in the future.
I think that is the general format I’m working on here, bitching, action, positivity.
Wow, this is vague as fuck, but that’s cool for now. This is really just for me at this point. The first person to call themselves a fan gets an opinion on clarity.